Tuesday, January 14, 2014

I don't have anything interesting to blog about other than that I never posted my extensive research paper about Harry Potter and generation Y on here. I'm now working on much more fun things, ie, my fiction. More posts to come. Enjoy!

 Magic Makes Morals Manifest: A Look at the Ways in which J.K. Rowling’s
Harry Potter Series Has Developed the Ethics of Generation Y
When most great novelists set their pens to paper or hands to keyboards, the intent is to tell a story. They do not first think of the morals they will impart on their readers or the lives they will change. Instead they first think of the story they need to tell. This is what J.K. Rowling did when she began writing her Harry Potter series. She had an idea, a story that needed to be told. This idea grew to be a seven-book series that was translated into over 60 languages and has sold over 325 million copies worldwide (Granger xi). According to Steven Pappas, “No other series of books has been read by more people; and nearly all of the film adaptations are among the top-grossing films of all time.” This story has reached hundreds of millions of people through its words on the page and story on the screen because Rowling wrote a fantastic tale.
Crucial to the storyline of the Harry Potter series is the morals and values of Rowling’s characters. The media has a large impact on the formation of children and young adults’ attitudes. As Geo Athena Trevarthen writes, “Whatever color their ink, words on the paper open us to bigger realities. Great books don’t just pass the time; they bring a greater sense of meaning to our lives. They tell us things about the world and ourselves” (13). Because of the epic reach of the novels and the time of the books’ publications, the influence of J. K. Rowling’s Harry Potter series has profoundly affected the Millennial Generation and has been a key component in the development of this generation.
To prove this theory, one must first define the Millennial Generation and examine several values of the Harry Potter series that have affected this generation. The Millennial Generation, or Generation Y, is most commonly quoted as encompassing those born from around the year 1982 to approximately 2002. These are individuals of the Internet age, cell phones, hundreds of television channels, social media, and, of course, Harry Potter, the dates of which expand from 1997 to 2011 if one includes the year of the first novel (Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone) to the last year of the last movie (Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part II). Many Millennials came of age with Rowling’s main characters, Harry Potter, Ron Weasley, and Hermione Granger, as the novels each consist of one year of the characters’ schooling from age 11 to 17. To see the effects of Rowling’s novels on the Millennial Generation, this discussion will highlight issues of acceptance and diversity: racial, gender, and sexual orientation equality and the value of blood and monetary status. The paper will also examine the formation of character in the Millennial Generation: what is considered to be good and evil, the ability to challenge tradition and authority and think critically and how this affects political choices, and the attitude that the world must come together to create a better society.
When defining the Millennial Generation, most sources will describe the group as being confident and optimistic when compared to older generations. Faced with difficulty finding jobs in the Great Recession, most Millennials still believe while they are not earning enough now, they will someday (Handley). They are the generation of school shootings; the War on Terrorism; busy, over-planned lives; the lowest parent-to-child ratio in American history; the most highly educated generation in history; and a group who grew up with technology at their fingertips. This generation is agreed to be more tolerant than those before it and to hold a new respect for the family (Gaylor). Through these points, whether historical factors, opinions brought on by those who came before the Millennials, or opinions of Generation Y about themselves, and many others, the Millennial Generation has come of age (or is still coming of age) and like all generations before it, certain media influences have played a role in its development.
As stated above, many Millennials came of age with Harry, Ron, and Hermione and all the rest of Rowling’s cast of characters. Being a generation of easy access to information and an expectation for almost instant results—what Generation Y-er would one ever see using a card catalogue, or even an encyclopedia for that matter, when she could simply Google her research—one would assume Millennials would be the last people to choose to read books of hundreds of pages like those that Rowling wrote. But they did. By the millions. The Millennials read the Harry Potter series so much so that critics have called them the Muggle Generation and fans have created ways to connect with one another all over the globe with Internet sites like Mugglenet.com, The Leaky Cauldron, and Mugglespace.com. They have video games, Harry Potter music by Wizard Rock bands, and recipes for wizard foods, and colleges around the nation have started Quidditch teams. Millennials dressed up and attended midnight releases of the series’ movies adding some of the top grossing movies of all time to Rowling’s list of achievements. With this range of influence one can begin to understand how Harry Potter helped form the values of an entire generation.
Anthony Gierzynski of the University of Vermont asked a group of students (members of Generation Y) what they thought defined their generation and the students listed the following: “school shootings in Columbine, Colorado; the Monica Lewinsky scandal; cell phones; the 2000 presidential election; the development of the Internet; September 11, 2001; the Bush presidency; reality TV; wars in Afghanistan and Iraq; hip-hop culture; Hurricane Katrina; global warming, Facebook, YouTube, the move toward same-sex marriage, and Harry Potter” (42). One student went on to say:
Harry Potter was one of the great cultural events of our generation’s [the Millennial Generation’s] time. Harry Potter helped raise the children of our generation by instilling in them some of the basic moral conceptions of right and wrong. In the series there is a very clear “good side,” epitomized by Harry Potter, which embodies the basic qualities of love, loyalty, courage, and forgiveness. Juxtaposed is a very clear “bad-side,” epitomized by He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, which embodies all of the negative qualities of deceitfulness, vengeance, and killing. (Gierzynski 42)
Short of Facebook, YouTube, and the hip-hop culture, Harry Potter was the lone media source that this group of Millennials thought defined them. These students latched on to no other television shows, books or movies.
Joel Stein of Time Magazine berated Millennials as being the “Me, Me, Me Generation,” claiming that “the incident of narcissistic personality disorder is nearly three times as high for people in their 20s as for the generation that’s now 65 or older…” and writing that while the parents of Millennials attempted to boost their children’s self-esteem they really boosted narcissism. Stein believes another quality of this generation is its sense of entitlement. Already mentioned is the desire of this generation to have everything at their fingertips; Stein would add that with the easy access Millennials have to their peers with cell phones and social media, they struggle to develop under the influence of older individuals, an influence that Stein’s sources deem necessary. While Stein and his sources would not approve of Millennial teens gaining influence from more teens as they already believe Millennials receive too much influence from their peers, Anna Kelner writes of the attacks on the Millennial Generation’s development on her blog with reference to Rowling’s stating that “[f]or a generation [Generation Y] that has been given everything except, perhaps, strong values, Harry Potter is the best source of moral guidance it has.” Maybe self confidence (or narcissism) is not a quality older generations like seeing in Millennials; however, many values of the Harry Potter series are becoming headline news and as the newcomers to America’s political and social scene, these values are going to bear weight whether older generations accept this or not.
What, then, is the moral guidance Harry Potter has given to Generation Y? As mentioned above, one of the defining characteristics of the Millennial Generation is their higher degree of tolerance as compared to older generations. The Pew Research Center conducted a study in 2010 of trends in the Millennial Generation as compared to Generation X (who Pew Research Center defines as being born between the years of 1965-1980), The Baby Boomer Generation (1946-1964), The Silent Generation (1928-1945), and the Greatest Generation (born before 1928) (Millennials 11). The Pew Research Center found that Millennials are significantly less likely to view interracial marriage as “a bad thing for society” (5% Millennials, 10% Generation X, 14% Boomers, 26% Silent) (59) and researchers found that Millennials consider a higher level of liberalism and tolerance to be one of the top three characteristics that sets them apart from the previous generations (13).
A great theme of the Harry Potter series is the value of befriending those who are historically considered marginalized. Harry’s first friend in the wizarding world is Hagrid, a half giant who, readers later learn, was kicked out of Hogwarts School of Witch Craft and Wizardry and banned from using magic but still does so illegally (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone 59) and born a half-giant (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire 428). Full-blood giants are feared and considered to be inferior by the witches and wizards of Rowling’s universe. The headmaster of Hogwarts and one of the greatest wizards of all time in the Harry Potter series, Albus Dumbledore, however, trusts Hagrid with some of the most important tasks in regards to taking care of Harry, the young boy prophesied to save the world from evil Voldemort, the Dark Lord. Hagrid flies Harry to his aunt and uncle’s home as a baby and he is in charge of bringing Harry into the wizarding world for the first time. Hagrid also proves to be one of Harry’s most loyal and loving friends throughout the series by caring for the boy like the family Harry never had. Even though Hagrid looks like someone most wizards would count as a lesser creature, Harry extends the kindness Hagrid shows to him and loves Hagrid in return for the person Hagrid is rather than for the person Hagrid looks like he is.
Rowling gives her readers numerous other examples of times where Harry looks to the character of a person (or human-like creature) rather than the appearance of that person regardless of what others’ preconceived notions are of these beings. Remus Lupin, a werewolf, becomes a father figure to Harry. Lupin teaches Harry how to fight dementors (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban 236), Harry’s biggest fear; and Lupin is also a part of the Order of the Phoenix, a society of wizards who bravely fight Voldemort to the death rather than hide from the fight against evil or join the Dark Lord’s forces (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix 58). Like Hagrid, Lupin is trusted by Dumbledore during Harry’s third year to teach young witches and wizards even though many of the children’s parents would think lowly of Lupin if they knew of the man’s otherness.
Rowling casts Dumbledore as the man to lead her young witches and wizards to become more interested in the person’s character rather than the person’s looks. Half-giant Hagrid always has a warm fire for Harry to sit by and shabbily-dressed Lupin always has a chocolate frog for Harry to recover with as opposed to the beautiful Gilderoy Lockhart who is more interested in using Harry to boost his own image than helping Harry in his quest and learn and grow as a young wizard as he does in Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets.
Harry also receives significant help from Dobby, a house-elf, and Firenze, a centaur, during his quest. These creatures are both regarded by many wizards as being inferior. House-elves are forever bound into servitude to wizarding families, required to wear nothing but rags and physically beat themselves if they break their families’ rules or speak ill of the family. Wizards like Ron who grew up in the wizarding world do not typically question the way of this abuse. They see this enslavement as normal. “‘We’ve been working like house-elves here!’” Ron cries after a long night of homework (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire 223). Those new to the ways of witches and wizards, like Hermione, however are appalled at what they witness. Hermione rages at the way house-elves are treated, showing readers that even if something is almost universally accepted as “normal” does not make the poor treatment of others, no matter who or what they are, right.
While the house-elves are doomed to unabashedly worship and forever serve their masters, centaurs choose to be independent of the wizard community. They are wary of wizards and most feel they should stay out of wizarding affairs. Firenze, however, goes against his community when he chooses to help Harry. He also sees beyond the small scope of what his community believes is the best choice and chooses to follow his own path and be independent. He chooses to do what he believes is right even though this choice means he is ostracized from his entire group of like beings and is forced to live with those of another kind. The first time he helps Harry in Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone, Bane, a member of Firenze’s herd, yells at Firenze, ‘“What are you doing? You have a human on your back! Have you no shame? Are you a common mule?”’ (Rowling 257). In Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, Dumbledore employs Firenze to teach Divination and his herd attacks him seeing this employment an act of betrayal to their kind (Rowling 601). Unable to return to his herd, Firenze remains at Hogwarts for the next two years even fights alongside Harry and his friends during the last battle at Hogwarts against Voldemort (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 745).
Important to all of these creatures and the role they play in showing Millennials the value of tolerance is Dumbledore’s belief in the goodness of all of them. Dumbledore custodies Hagrid to take Harry to his aunt’s house after his parents are killed even though Hagrid is both a half giant and did not finish his schooling. Dumbledore trusts Lupin to teach his students and values him as an integral player in the Order, which will lead the fight against Voldemort. Dumbledore entertains Dobby’s wish to be paid when he goes to work at Hogwarts when no other house-elf had probably had to courage to ask for (or the agency to desire) such a thing (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire 379). Dumbledore employs Firenze to teach his students Divination even though Dumbledore knows the other centaurs’ ill feelings toward wizards and their abandonment of Firenze. As Sarah Quartley writes:
Essentially, Dumbledore is concerned with the individual.  The metaphorical issues of race, class, ability, and achievement that J.K. Rowling constructs in the world of Harry Potter carry little or no importance for Dumbledore.  In this way, Dumbledore expresses to youth and adults alike that what society perceives of them is of no matter as long as they are fighting for or doing what is right and good. 
Youth are constantly told that they are the future of the world. Rowling has given Millennials a perfect teacher in Dumbledore and an excellent peer in Harry to show America’s youth how to move forward with less bigotry and judgment. Through her story telling and not through lecture, Rowling captivated a generation when their minds were forming their worldviews. She taught them to look past appearances and to look into the character of every individual before judgment. Her influence has shown its prevalence in Millennials views on tolerance versus the views of generations before them.  
            Another large topic in America’s media today is the tolerance of gay, lesbian, transgender and bisexual individuals. While the issue of gay rights is not ever touched on in Rowling’s series, she did stir the pot when she told some 2,000 fans that the great wizard, headmaster of Hogwarts and mentor to Harry, Albus Dumbledore, is gay (Siegel). ABC News writer, Hanna Siegel quotes a fan’s note from the Harry Potter fan site The Leaky Cauldron: “This is a victory for homosexuality the world over…Dumbledore is iconic, and I can’t wait for all those little children to hear about this. I am so insanely proud of [Rowling] for doing this.”
Pew Research Center’s study on Generation Y and previous generations finds that a major difference between Millennials and the generations before them is their exposure to, and relationships with, gay people. Pew Research finds that over fifty percent of Millennials have gay friends or family members compared to forty-six percent of Generation X, forty-four percent of Baby Boomers and twenty-four percent of the Silent Generation. Pew researchers believe that because of this exposure, Millennials are more comfortable with the issue of gay marriage with almost two-thirds of Generation Y-ers polled being in favor of gay and lesbian marriage (62). Pew Research also finds Millennials to be the only generation in favor of gay marriage (51). Siegel quotes Rowling stating that Rowling believes her novels are a “prolonged argument for tolerance.” While Rowling’s teachings may not be the main factor in the drive for tolerance toward gay people, gay marriage rights have become a highly debated topic during the height of Millennials’ political coming of age and the teachings of tolerance and equality Rowling has helped guide her millions of Millennial readers.          
            In addition to writing about the benefits of judging others based on character rather than appearance or sexual orientation, Rowling also uses the value of character over blood and/or wealth status to help teach Millennials to extend their tolerance to all those around them, no matter a person’s background. As Sirius tells Ron, “‘If you want to know what a man's like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals’” (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire 525). Both of Harry’s best friends, Ron Weasley and Hermione Granger, are of backgrounds that many prominent wizarding families would look down upon. Ron’s family, while consider pure blooded (no non-magical blood in its bloodline), is scorned by other pure blood families because of the Weasley’s kindness toward non-wizards and their lack of money. Ron’s father, Arthur Weasley, works for the ministry of magic in their Misuse of Muggle (those who are non-magic) Artifacts department. Luscious Malfoy, another pure blooded family line, says of Arthur’s job, “‘Dear me, what’s the use of being a disgrace to the name of wizard if they don’t even pay you well for it?”’ (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets 62). However, the Malfoys continuously show themselves to be of low character despite their wealth and pure blood status—joining with Voldemort, mistreating their house-elf, bullying others—and the Weasleys continuously show their noble character—opening their home to Harry as if he were family, becoming leaders of the resistance against Voldemort. The sheer contrast between the Weasleys and the Malfoys teaches readers that all the money in the world cannot buy good character nor does the purest blood breed goodness.
Even being born into a family with no magical blood, Hermione Granger is the smartest witch in her class at Hogwarts. Her quick thinking and precision of spells save Harry and others countless times throughout Rowling’s series. However, no matter how much more intelligent and better at spells she proves herself to be, there are several students who still see Hermione as beneath them because of her non-magic parents. Draco Malfoy and others like him who believe in the sanctity of pure magic blood call Hermione and others like her “Mudbloods.” When Malfoy calls Hermione a Mudblood, Ron explains to Harry and Hermione, ‘“It’s about the most insulting thing he could think of…Mudblood’s a really foul name for someone who is Muggle-born…There are some wizards—like Malfoy’s family—who think they’re better than everyone else because they’re what people call pure-blood…I mean, the rest of us know it doesn’t make any difference at all”’ (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets 116). Hagrid goes on to comment that there has yet to be a spell that has stumped Hermione showing that magical prowess and talent cannot be damped by one’s origin.
Hermione serves as a great inspiration to Millennial females. One Millennial says of Hermione, “I cannot remember any shows or movies I watched, or books I read in my youth, that had a strong female protagonist. Hermione Granger, the lead female character in the in the Harry Potter series, was like me. She liked to read…to write…to learn. She was smart…confident… and she grew into her beauty” (Gierzynski 77). Rowling shows her readers that no matter where they came from, the content of their mind and heart are what matter, and these are the things she urges her readers to look to when judging others, not the status of their familial background.
Additional to Ron and Hermione’s backgrounds, even Harry himself is of “mixed blood” as his mother was a Muggle-born witch and his father of wizarding ancestry. According to Pew Research, Millennials are far less likely than any generation before them to believe that interracial marriage is a “bad thing” for society (52). Rowling displays her case on this issue with the marriage of pure blood wizards (Ron Weasley) marrying Muggle-blood witches (Hermione Granger) (Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 755) as well as those who marry someone with “tainted blood” like Remus Lupin, a werewolf, and Nymphadora Tonks, a witch (Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 46).
            To show Millennials’ tolerance as a result of the Harry Potter series, a study conducted by Anthony Gierzynski and Kathryn Eddy will be examined. Gierzynski and Eddy’s survey polled members of the Millennial generation who read all seven Harry Potter books, who had read some of the books and/or saw the movies and who had neither read the books nor seen the movies and found that those who had read the novels had “significant warmer feelings toward different groups [of people]” (Gierzynski 52). The groups of people Gierzynski and Eddy polled their American youth about were Muslims, African Americans, undocumented immigrants, and homosexuals (51). With the above indication that Millennials are more likely than older generations to support gay and interracial marriage, the influence of Rowling’s teaching of tolerance to all can be seen. Gierzynski and Eddy’s study also found that Millennials who read Rowling’s series believe the American government should promote more equality than those who did not read the books. As shown above with the contrast in character of the Weasley family and the Malfoy family, Harry Potter favors a hard-working middle class over blood and monetary status.
            As stated earlier, many observers of the Millennial Generation feel that this generation is a confident one. Whether these people are critical of the Millennials’ confidence, like Stein, or feel Generation Y’s optimism toward the future is a positive result of their self-confidence, some of these feelings could be attributed to Rowling’s series. Important to a story written for a young person is that the protagonist be a young person as well. Harry is brave and smart and a strong character, sure, but he is also one very important thing—a child. So many Millennials grew up along with Harry and saw him save the world, but also make mistakes, get detention and have crushes just like them. Harry, Ron, and Hermione are students to whom most American teens can relate even though the characters are living in a magical world. Not only does Dumbledore teach readers and his students about tolerance, but he also teaches them to believe in themselves. When Harry and Dumbledore go to find a horocrux in Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, the pair has to fight off some of the darkest magic either has seen. A potion weakens Dumbledore and Harry continuously tells his professor that things will be all right. Dumbledore responds, “‘I am not worried, Harry…I am with you’” (Rowling 578). Dumbledore believes in the power of a young, inexperienced wizard to protect him and through the entire series of novels to save the world. This confidence is part of what researchers have found to be such a prominent trait in Millennials. This generation is looking to do big things; they just need to be given a chance.
Harry Potter not only grew up an orphan and found out that he is part of a secret magical world quite separate from the world he thought he knew, but also he finds that he is prophesized to save both the wizarding and Muggle worlds. As stated above, being new to the magical world, Harry must find allies who will help his cause. Just like the real world, however, Rowling’s characters are multi-dimensional, being neither wholly good nor wholly evil. Harry and his readers must look critically at every situation to learn who to trust and who to hold at a distance.
Millennials have grown up in a world where they can easily hide behind computer screens and texts messages rather than confront each other in face-to-face interactions. However, Gierzynski and Eddy found that Millennials who read Harry Potter are more likely than those who did not to participate in political activities “reflecting the story’s need to act and, efficacy of doing something to fight what is wrong in the world” (58). Anna Kelner writes of the complexity of Rowling’s characters and their influence on the morals of Generation Y by stating:
In Harry Potter, heroes can quickly turn into foes, and Rowling demands that her readership evaluate and reevaluate their understanding of the difference between good guys and bad guys. Thus, she provides the Facebook generation [Generation Y] with a rare and important opportunity for moral reasoning. As Lauren Hinnendyk and Kimberly A. Schonert-Reichl wrote in 2002 in the Journal of Moral Education, “because the Harry Potter stories are classic fairy tales—that is, stories that revolve around the struggle of good versus evil and moral obligation—the exploits of Harry Potter and his colleagues not only serve as a source of entertainment but can provide an impetus for children’s social and moral development as well.”
And Harry does act. In Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone, eleven-year-old Harry chooses the dangerous paths of saving Hermione from the troll (Rowling 176), jumping on a broom for the first time and diving to save Neville’s stolen Rememberall (Rowling 149), and thwarts Voldemort’s attempt at stealing the Sorcerer’s Stone (Rowling 292). Breaking the rules and confronting danger head on are clearly not the easy choices. Harry shows his fans that one is never too young to make the brave choice—the choice in favor of good over evil.
            Rowling does not make the line between good and evil clear-cut for her readers. Her characters are flawed just like the people Millennials will deal with their whole lives. Harry comes of age struggling with his hatred and distrust of his potions teacher, and known former Voldemort support, Severus Snape. While Snape gives Harry plenty of reason to dislike him—mocking Harry in class, insulting Harry’s father, and giving Harry detentions—at the end of the series, in Snape’s final breaths of life, Harry and readers learn that Snape had been protecting Harry and began his life as a double agent against Voldemort because of his love for Harry’s mother. This twist helps teach readers to not take everyone at face value—a lesson Generation Y, the “Facebook Generation,” can take to heart especially when so much of their interactions are done via profiles on the internet. As Kelner writes: 
By prompting her audience to explore the nebulous concept of character—something which cannot be determined by a Facebook profile or memorized from a textbook—Rowling provides her readers with information not readily accessed in the modern age. With religious attendance in decline, Generation Y must discover a new source of morality that can help them reason through modern challenges like the worth of the ever-expanding War on Terror and the rules of “netiquette”.
Kelner goes on to quote Dumbledore’s perfect summation of “the root of Harry’s success: ‘Of house-elves and children's tales, of love, loyalty, and innocence, Voldemort knows and understands nothing. Nothing. That they all have a power beyond his own, a power beyond the reach of any magic, is a truth he has never grasped’ (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 709-10).
Love and loyalty play a huge role in Rowling’s novels. Love saves Harry time and time again from Voldemort’s power. This obvious goodness proves to be the strongest magic in the wizarding world. Love gives a baby the power to defeat one of the most powerful wizards of all time. Harry’s loyalty to do the right thing and stay true to those he loves gives him the fortitude and the followers to defeat Voldemort a second and final time at the end of the series. If, as Kelner states and other studies on Millennials find (“Millennials” 85), religion is not playing as significant a role in the development of Generation Y’s morals as it did in those generations of the past, what better teaching of morality than the triumph of love and loyalty over evil?
            In addition to characters who seem bad but are actually good, Harry often comes in contact with characters of authority, who one would assume are good because of their leadership positions, who are actually quite corrupt. Most of these officials are in the political sphere of the wizarding world. Andrew Lowosky writes that Rowling portrays the Ministry of Magic as “as a rigid, ineffectual bureaucracy incapable of protecting its subjects from any meaningful threat.” Cornelius Fudge, Minister of Magic while Harry first comes to Hogwarts, denies Harry’s eyewitness account to Voldemort’s return (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire 705). In the same novel, Rita Skeeter’s embellished reporting for The Daily Prophet calls readers to examine what they read and make their own judgments rather than believing whatever they are told. In Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, Fudge discredits Harry’s claims of Voldemort’s return and takes control of the media to portray Harry in a negative light in attempt to keep the wizarding community in the dark about Voldemort’s threat. Fudge refuses to believe that Voldemort could return and thus leaves his people clueless about the danger that is growing in the shadows. In this way Rowling shows her readers they need to be willing to read and listen critically and make their own judgments rather than blindly follow those in power.
            Gierzynski and Eddy found Millennials who read Harry Potter to be just that: skeptical. The pair asked Millennials if they believed in common conspiracy theories “such as the notion that the moon landing was fake, that global warming is a myth, that there was a conspiracy to assassinate JFK, and that the US government staged the September 11th attacks…As hypothesized, Harry Potter fans were more likely to pick the skeptical responses” as forty-four percent of fans polled answered that they thought there was truth to one or two of these theories as compared to fifty-two percent of nonfans (60-1). This evidence shows that many Millennials who read Harry Potter are more cautious about what the government tells them to believe.
Rufus Scrimgeour takes over as Minster of Magic after Fudge and, while he takes the threat of Voldemort seriously, he is just as ineffective at stopping the Dark Lord as Fudge was. Scrimgeour wants Harry to join up with him because Harry has support of the people and if Harry backs Scrimgeour then so will the rest wizarding world who opposes Voldemort. Harry, however, does not agree with Scrimgeour’s politics and refuses saying:
 “…Has anyone ever tried sticking a sword in Voldemort? Maybe the Ministry should put some people onto that, instead of wasting their time stripping down Deluminators or covering up breakouts from Azkaban [the wizarding jail]. So is this what you’ve been doing, Minister, shut up in your office, trying to break open a Snitch? People are dying—I was nearly one of them—Voldemort chased me across three counties, he killed Mad-Eye Moody, but there’s been no world about any of that from the Ministry, has there?” (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 129-30)
Ineffective in an entirely different way than Fudge was, Scrimgeour tries to hide the truth from the public about the danger that they are in. He chooses to give the people only part of the truth, rather than admit that he does not have total control over the growing threat that Voldemort imposes.
Later in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, Voldemort and his followers have effectively infiltrated the Ministry of Magic; taken over The Daily Prophet, the wizarding world’s main body of media; and posted followers in several positions in Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. Voldemort creates a world in which no one is sure whom to trust. Once again, Rowling teaches her readers to question what they hear and read.
            The impact of skepticism in the trustworthiness of political figures can also be seen in Millennials’ voting habits. In their book, Harry Potter and the Millennials: Research Methods and the Politics of the Muggle Generation, Gierzynski and Eddy write:
…[w]e acquire political values and views from our culture. We learn how to act and what to value in our society from people…and institutions…and the media…From our preteen years to our adolescence, when we are just becoming aware of the political world and forming our initial impressions, these agents can have a tremendous impact on the values and outlooks that form the basis of our politics. The Millennial Generation became engrossed in Harry Potter at just this time in their political socialization, heightening the potential impact and making it so that the tales from the wizarding world may have a significant impact on shaping the nature of their generation. (8)
Gierzynski and Eddy go on to investigate the voting habits of the Millennial Generation. In line with Pew Research Center’s study on Millennials, Gierzynski and Eddy found Millennials to be some of Barak Obama’s strongest supporters in America’s 2008 election.
As discussed above, Millennials who read the Harry Potter series were found to be more eager for participation in volunteer and political activities. Obama’s campaign for hope and change resonated with a generation who has been heavily affected by the most recent recession, but hasn’t lost optimism about the future (“Millennials” 40). According to Pew Research Center, Millennials are far more likely (88%) to believe that they will earn enough money to life a happy life in the future as compared to seventy-six percent of Generation Xers and forty-six percent of Baby Boomer polled about the same recession (40). While Generation Y’s optimism may not be dimmed by the recession, Gierzynski and Eddy found Harry Potter fans to be more skeptical of the government than non-fans (71). “In interviews with fans, most attributed their views on government to the Harry Potter series” (Gierzynski 71). When asked if a Millennial could see anything from the Harry Potter series in the student’s self, one student responded: “…[A]n awareness about corruption in government…I think that maybe people who like, were aware of it, in the way that reading would, sort of, react to it faster?” (Gierzynski 71).
This desire for change and skepticism of government can be seen in the Millennials heavy support in the 2008 election for President Barak Obama. Pew Research Center finds that those over the age of thirty, voters of generations before the Millennials, were near split between Obama and John McCain (Obama 50%, McCain 48%). Millennials, however, were overwhelmingly supportive of Obama (Obama 66%, McCain 32%). Not only did Pew researchers find that this was “the largest disparity between younger and older voters recorded in four decades of modern exit polling” but they also found that  “after decades of low voter participation by the young, the turnout gap in 2008 between voters under and over the age of 30 was the smallest it had been in any election since 18- to 20-year-olds were given the right to vote in 1972” (63). In Gierzynski and Eddy’s study of Millennials, they found that a higher percentage of Harry Potter fans believed that historians would view the George W. Bush administration unfavorably (83%) than non-fans (74%) (58) and were even more likely to have voted for Barak Obama in 2008 (Obama 58%, McCain 15%, Other 3%, Did not vote 24%) than non-fans (Obama 45%, McCain 23%, Other 3%, Did not vote 29%) (61).
Because of the level of corruption Harry sees in his government, he sees no better answer than to take matters into his own hands. Harry must learn to depend on himself and those he has found to be trustworthy rather than believe that the political system and the adults around him will solve problems. Harry and his friends have taught Millennials to not only be skeptical of the government and media, but they have also taught Generation Y to take matters into their own hands and be active in changing that government as examined in the high voter turnout among Millennials. As one member of Generation Y told Gierzynski and Eddy, “What Harry did for me as I was growing up was to provide me with a template for human interactions that I could refer to as I struggled through different social situations…he showed me examples of when to be respectful, when to rebel, how to be gracious, how to resolve conflicts with friends and foes alike” (76). Clearly Harry Potter functioned as a positive role model to many children who grew up with him.
In addition to Harry’s critical examination of those in power and his desire to act, Harry also teaches his readers to practice non-violence. The members of the Order of the Phoenix, those who oppose Voldemort, reprimand Harry time and again for using disarming and other non-violent spells to repel his foes. However, Harry tells them, “‘I won’t blast people out of the way just because they’re there…That’s Voldemort’s job’” (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 71). Rowling shows her readers that even though Voldemort and his followers would aim to kill Harry, Harry will not compromise his character and take another’s life. Much like Harry and his friends detest the poor treatment of house-elves and other marginalized characters in the series, Harry has strong beliefs in the value of human life. While this is shown countless times throughout the series, possibly the most telling interaction of Harry’s morality is the bravery he showed in saving Draco Malfoy’s life.
Draco Malfoy is an enemy to Harry from almost the onset of their first year at Hogwarts and is even poised to kill Harry’s most trusted mentor, Dumbledore, for Voldemort during book six, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. In the last book of the series, even when Malfoy’s allegiance to Voldemort is clear, and Malfoy and his cronies are firing killing curses at Harry, Ron, and Hermione in the Room of Requirement, Harry insists on risking his own life, and the lives of his friends, to save Malfoy, his enemy (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 633). This unwavering integrity and commitment to do what he believes is right, no matter the consequences has resonated with Millennials who are fans of Rowling’s series. Gierzynski and Eddy found that, “…Potter fans seem to reflect the series’s [sic] lessons on the use of deadly force from the series, showing less support for the death penalty and disagreeing with the statement that hunting down and killing terrorists is the best way to deal with the threat of terrorism.” When Gierzynski and Eddy asked Millennials, “would you regard the use of torture against people suspected of involvement in terrorism as acceptable or unacceptable?” thirty-one percent of nonfans found torture acceptable while only twenty-one percent of fans did (56-58). Pew Research Center also found Generation Y, along with Generation X, to be significantly less supportive of the use of military force to achieve peace (79). Shifts toward a more tolerant community, an optimistic but quizzical mind toward politics, and a desire to create a less violent world are all becoming themes research has shown Millennials are working toward for the future of their world. Rowling’s fictional characters have given Generation Y peers to show them a way to make this world a reality.
The optimism of Millennials is repeated time and again when researchers write about this generation. The world mentioned above, tolerant, open-minded, peaceful, may sound like a utopia to generations before Generation Y, however, these youth see this future as attainable. Millennials believe they have the power to create change. They put their faith in a president who campaigned for change. They have followed a fictional boy who strove for a better world and helped destroy the evil around him to create it.
Unlike their world of instant information, the power to change their future will not be instant or easy. Harry Potter taught Millennials that they have the choice to make the changes they want to see in their world. While the difference in percentage may be small (Millennials 57%, Generation X 54%, Baby Boomers 52% and Silent Generation 39%), Pew researchers found Millennials to have done more volunteer work in the year prior to their survey than any other generation before (83). These researchers also found Millennials to be slightly more likely than older generations to boycott brands with whose social or political activities they disagreed and were slightly more likely to buy from consumers who Millennials felt had good social or political views (“Millennials” 84). Being the generation with the lowest incomes as they are either students or just beginning their careers, that Millennials are making choices to volunteer their time and purchase products based on merit rather than price speaks volumes to the level of commitment many members of Generation Y have to changing the world around them into what they view as a better place. Volunteerism and product boycotting and buycotting, buying products because the consumer values the producer’s practices (“Millennials” 84) may sound like small steps, but they are steps toward change nonetheless.
Millennials also know that their small contributions can create worldwide change when a group of likeminded individuals can start working as a whole. As a generation partially defined by school shootings, terrorism, a recession, and war, one might think Millennials would find optimism a hard attitude to follow when looking toward the future. However, as has been found by many researchers and repeated throughout this discussion, Millennials’ spirits have not damped. Millennials have bright views of the future and part of this could be because, like Harry Potter, Millennials know that they are not in the trek alone.
From her very first novel in which Hermione’s knowledge (Rowling 286), Ron’s chess skills (Rowling 283), and Harry’s bravery (Rowling 292) break through a labyrinth of tests meant to stump even the most powerful and clever witches and wizards when the students are only eleven, Rowling shows readers that they are at their greatest strength when combining their skill sets with those of their friends. Dumbledore constantly preaches the power of the collective group when withstanding evil versus the power of the individual. When Lord Voldemort regained his body in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, Dumbledore addressed his students and faculty and those of two visiting schools from other wizarding nations by saying, “…we are only as strong as we are united, as weak as we are divided. Lord Voldemort’s gift for spreading discord and enmity is very great. We can fight it only by showing an equally strong bond of friendship and trust. Differences of habit and language are nothing at all if our aims are identical and our hearts are open” (Rowling 723). In this passage, Rowling perfectly conveys to her readers the message Millennials heard from her for so much of their formative years: together, one strong group can effect positive change in the world no matter their differences in background.
Pew researchers found Millennials to put the most value on their relationships with others as opposed to making large sums of money or being famous. Most Millennials felt that “being a good parent,” “having a successful marriage,” and “helping others in need,” were, respectively, the most important things in life as opposed to “being successful in a high paying career,” “having lots of free time,” and “becoming famous” (18). This echoes Hermione’s feelings in Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone when she tells Harry, “‘Books! And cleverness! There are far more important things—friendship and bravery…” (Rowling 287). Millennials are focusing on each other rather than, as Stein would believe, themselves. In this way they will move the world forward.
Millennials are ready to make their generation’s mark in history. They have learned from generations past, technology of the future, and their present peers. They look optimistically toward hope and change and know they can make a difference together no matter what the current situation is. They know the spell for success will not take the magic of Harry Potter’s world, but one they create with a change in the treatment of others, a willingness to act and a skeptical, but optimistic attitude. They know they can be successful because peers of a fictional universe have shown them how. J.K. Rowling and Harry Potter taught Generation Y how to move their nation forward by their own terms rather than by the terms of the officials in place. They have been taught love and loyalty are the most powerful magic they can use in making this future a reality. Rowling’s words helped spur action in a generation many accuse of being glued to their computer chairs. Her story taught these youth to trust themselves, question what has been done before, and put their faith in others based on the person’s heart rather than background. If Generation Y’s Voldemort is intolerance, apathy toward giving time, and violence, Millennials are ready with the magic of their optimism and eagerness to face their foe. They have time and a great story’s role models to fall back on when they need to be reminded what a young generation can do. As the generation poised to take the reigns in the future of America, Rowling has given them the best role models and teachers to know that they, and the rest of their peers have nowhere to go but up and forward. They have all the confidence they need and have learned, as Dumbledore taught them, “‘…it matters not what someone is born, but what they grow up to be’” (Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire 708). One could reform his statement to be that it matters not the state of the world a generation inherits, but how they progress that world and as has been shown, Millennials are willing to take and optimistic about taking the steps to change their world. Rowling’s words in print and on screen truly brought more meaning to the lives of millions of Millennials, teaching them about the world and their place in it and there is nowhere for Millennials to go but to go but forward using the magic they create together.



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Sunday, January 5, 2014

December Newsies

Week One and Two: Back to Nerd Camp

Oh, back to Los Angeles!!! Hugs, kisses, fairies, and gumdrops! Nerd camp was wonderful as always. Christin and I stayed together again and ate too much peanut butter and jelly and giggled and tried many new things. First of all, we didn't have a car. We tried a new service called Lyft--cheaper than a cab, real people pick you up in their own car and drive you when you request them on an app. The cars have pink mustaches. Awesome. The first time we took Lyft to the Director's Guild Theater and saw a screening of Spike Lee's Old Boy. It was pretty much what one would expect of Spike Lee. Well, what I would expect of him and I'm not a movie person. Pretty cool to see a movie before it hits theaters though. Then we were Lyfted to a party for Nebraskans in Los Angeles. We met the woman who will do the voice overs for our audio books when we are rich and published, well, maybe just published. We also cleaned house in the raffle for Nebraska stuff for Nebraskans in Los Angeles and met the actors in the Robitussin commercial, the tablet with the dad in the backyard camping commercial, the Cox guy, and the Nebraska Furniture Mart girl (actually from Iowa, but you know she wishes she were from Nebraska). We had epic Korean BBQ and sang Korean karaoke (not karaoke in Korean, but karaoke in Korea town where we were the only ones who could sing in English, Michael Jackson, Lady Gaga, The Stones, and I may have accidentally hijacked an old Korean lady's song). Christin, Dalia, and I met my friend Carrie and her husband Jake on the haunted Queen Mary ship in Long Beach on Friday the 13th. We didn't see any ghosts, but we did follow a family so that we could talk them into letting us see their room, re-enact Titanic, and I sat on a huge gun.

Week three: I sign my life away

I did it! I accomplished one goal of age 25. I bought my house. It's officially official. I am the proud owner of a 4 bedroom 2 bath 1916 home with all the original wood work, an office where I will write my novels, a window seat, a huge kitchen with granite and stainless steel, a deck, and a 2 car garage. I also ripped a hole up the buttcrack of my swim suit at some point the day before I closed on my house. I noticed it in the shower after my swim. It could have happened when I put the suit on (mind you, I work where I swim), think the walk to the pool, when I was swimming, think every flip turn, or when I took off the suit in the shower, fat chance. I thought I'd feel like a real grownup when I bought the house, but buttcrack still makes me giggle so maybe I'll always just be a silly girl.

Week four: Be a boss

This week I pretty much did all the new things a person wants to do when they become a home owner. I sprinkled sage in every corner of my home and said, "Please no ghosts" because I heard that sage and Native American chants ward off ghosts. I had sage but no chant so I improvised. I unpacked. I set up my office and I finally have closet space for every single article of clothing I own. I also have I new big girl bed.

Week five: The New Year

On New Year's Eve most of my dad's side of the family, including John and me, traveled to Iowa City to watch my cousin play basketball. He plays for the University of Iowa and this was my first time going to Iowa City. John and I had big dreams of street food and toasting to the New Year after some hoops. We then planned to get up and run in the morning, drive to Des Moines to a Husker bar for the Nebraska Bowl game and then head the rest of the way home to Omaha. Between the 2 of us, we had one person's full luggage for all we planned to do. I forgot tights for my dress. He forgot running shoes and a toothbrush. My dad told us the wrong location for dinner before the game so we ran a mile in the subzero temps and were hangry (so hungry you're angry--you know you've been there) with everyone but each other for duration of the game that we were on time to by only 9 minutes after the going to the wrong bar and running. We thought we'd change to go out at the hotel then get dinner but then I saw my tights were missing so we decided to go out scrubby in our Iowa gear. After 2 failed attempts for places serving dinner, we landed on a gem and pigged out on chicken stripes as big as my head. We then decided we were full and didn't want to attempt to cab home from downtown Iowa City, bought a cheap bottle of champagne and made it back to the hotel pool with minutes to spare before toasting 2014 with my family and some other white trash family who talked us all into playing flippy cup with them and their 13 year old daughters (playing with Mountain Dew). Not how we envisioned our first road trip/New Year's but I really did have a ton of fun.

Even though it's not part of 2013 and my resolution, I'll include the rest of our little Iowan adventure:

It was so cold in Iowa City that you would walk outside and want to shout things like BALLS! POOP! and other choice words. It was cold as balls and snowed 4 inches or so, over night but the interstate was clear. John and I planned to get up in the morning and drive half way to Des Moines, stop at one of the few Husker bars I know there and then drive the rest of the way home after the Nebraska bowl game. Poor guy though, he was driving my car and we had to exit the interstate to get gas. The off ramp was not well plowed and we slide the entire length of it, passed a truck we both thought we were going to hit, through 2 lanes of traffic, and slammed into a snow bank. John was freaking out and I was talking in my voice reserved for preschoolers: "You're doing just fine. We're going to OK. You're fine. We're OK. You're doing just great." 
I had just taken my snow boots out of my car so that I could have more room move boxes the week before. I was wearing my slippers so I tried to put the cowgirl boots I brought to wear on New Year's, but it was so cold the leather shrank up and I couldn't get them on. My car was fine but we had to dig it out of the snow pile, because, yes, I travel with a shovel in my car, then get yanked the rest of the way out by a guy with a tow rope. The guy pulled us out, drove away, and I tried to start the car, but the battery was dead. It was, like, real feel negative 6 and we'd left the lights on while digging out. So someone else stopped to jump our car. We drove the rest of the way to Des Moines but my car would shake like crazy when I went over 50 mph. In Des Moines, we manhandled some BBQ chicken pizza--I can't even remember the last time I've had such wonderful pizza and it was so phenomenal AND WARM! We missed the first half of the Husker game and I told my mom about what happened. She didn't want us driving the rest of the way home in case we were to make something worse with my car. So we sat there and called the 16 AAA places in Des Moines, none of which were open because of the holiday. 

By this time it was almost 3pm and the sun would be setting well before we get home. I called AAA back and asked about what it would cost to tow my car back to Omaha (at $4/mile after 5 miles that would be over $600--not going to happen) and the guy was so nice he started giving us ideas on what could be wrong with the car. He must be a dad with a daughter. He told us that if there was something wrong with the tire axel, it would be visibly noticeable from the outside. So John and I went out to the parking lot and I drove back and forth across the parking lot while he ran across it and tried to watch for the tires wobbling. We also witness a huge ass truck run into a snow covered fire hydrant, but that is neither here nor there in my story. John didn't see any wobbling. My grandpa then called me and said that there might just be snow packed in the wheels and we should try to knock it out. So after running all around the parking lot we then crouched by the tires and knocked snow out of them and decided we're out. The shaking was better, but we still drive 50 the whole way home. On the interstate. I almost hated myself for being That Person, but we had to get home. 

In the end the snow packed in the tires was the problem. But what an adventure. We actually had a lot of fun with it. 
October and November new things

Week one: Wedding in Sioux City

I went to a wedding in Sioux City, Iowa as a guest of the wedding party. My boyfriend, yes, boyfriend, keep reading and you'll be updated--scary, was the best man in a wedding for one of his college buddies. This was actually a way bigger deal in my head that it probably needed to be. First, I was all Ahhh! I have to meet all these new people. Then it was Ahhhh! John won't be sitting with me ever. Then I realized Ahhhh! That means I'll be sitting with his parents! His parents are very nice. But still. Parents. Then the ultimate came: it was a Catholic wedding. Nothing against that, but I'm not Catholic and I knew there would be all kinds of things I didn't know. Enter dear and wonderful and way-too-excited-about-helping-in-my-personal-life client. I wasn't nervous about the wedding until my client, we'll call him Steve, said that he wanted to get me prepped to impress my future in-laws. I said I'd rather impress John's parents and not embarrass myself or offend anyone. As I'm training him in weights and he's sweaty and in between burpees, Steve is teaching me the hail Mary's and how to cross myself. Steve told me all parts of the Catholic wedding including when I would hold hands and when I could knee if I chose and, yes, I already knew, no going up for communion. When we got to the actual wedding, I did sit with John's parents (I was so thankful they were there so I didn't have to sit alone), but his mom was very sweet and told me I did not have to kneel unless I wanted and I really felt like I was following along just fine, la dee dee, la dee da, then came the part to hold hands. I was so overjoyed that I already knew that part that I grabbed John's mom's hand like we were going to skip-to-my-lou across a field of daisies. So I still embarrassed myself. Not that embarrassing myself is new, but still. Other newsies this week, I went to Prince's, John's college bar, and saw the house he lived in in college and his campus and met his college friends. Quite nice. Oh, annnddd I ran through a Renaissance fair. Like literally, 9am on a Sunday morning in Sioux City, Iowa I'm running along the river and run right through a fair of people dressed in Renaissance garb and roasting turkey legs and having sword fights.

Week two: The South

I travelled to Nashville, Tennessee and Raleigh, North Carolina. First time I have been to either place. I ate a ton, listened to great live music, and hung with three of my most favorite girls in the world. The most interesting story I have of the trip was that one night in Nashville, my friend Kim and I were listening to some guys play country music in a bar off the beaten path from main street (Note: Nashville is awesome for during the day bar scene--live music starting at 10am, however, it's terrifying at night. Ok, I'm being over dramatic. It's too loud and too crowded at night for my taste) that was not so crowded. The guys playing were great and we were having a great time watching a woman who had to be on some kind of drugs dance (no one else in the bar was dancing). She was wearing rags and a tail and was draping herself over the speakers and dancing willowy about the bar. She looked, moved, dressed, and acted just like Sarah Jessica Parker's character in Hocus Pocus (best Halloween movie of all time, beeteedub). No one paid her too much attention rather than to wonder what she was on. Until she came to Kim's and my table. And pulled us up to dance with her. It was probably because we were the only other young girls in the bar. She had us spin and twirl in front of the singers and then sit on the floor in the middle of the bar and close our eyes. She told us that it was ridiculous that men were not hitting on us in this bar and that we needed to send vibes to the goddess. We were quite OK with not getting hit on in this bar. Then she lead us over to kneel in front of a blue, life-sized Jack Daniel's statue and pray to the gods for men to grow balls. That was a first.

Week three: I cross a line

I did a scary thing. I, die hard Husker, went to a Missouri football game. John's family all went to Mizzou and they are huge fans. His parents have season tickets and Nebraska had a bye week so I figured why no go? My family and Husker friends were worried I'd be attacked and maimed, but I I wore a Mizzou shirt over my Husker bra and undies to cover my true alliance--survival mode. In the word of my aunt--at least the important parts were untainted by the enemy. I had a ton of fun at the game and the entire weekend. However, "there is no place like Nebraska." There never will be.

Week four: I put on big girl panties

Big week for Erin!!! I put an offer on a house that was accepted! I'm a real grownup. So it seems I guess, to me anyway. Thousands of dollars in debt and a permanent home make me feel like a grownup.

Week five: I run a long way and get an urn
I placed third in a 21 mile trail run. My first trail run and the farthest race I've ever ran. My reward? A bitching trophy--oooor maybe it's an urn.


November newsies:

Week one: I can now kick your butt
I got trained in teaching boxing. I officially kind of feel like a badass.

Week two: Another line is crossed

Welp. This was the week I posted on this blog a picture of myself with a dude. That really freaks me out. Here I am claiming a guy. This is almost as big to me as taking a significant other along to, like, Christmas with my mom's family. It's been over a month and it still all freaks me out some. And Christmas with my mom's family is not happening.

Week three: Oh, the tailgate

John went to Lincoln with me to tailgate for the Nebraska vs. Michigan State game. He finally met my dear and wonderful and way-too-excited-about-helping-in-my-personal-life client "Steve." Steve's tailgate is the king of tailgates. John beer bonged .1 second away from the tailgate's world record and Steve had the talk with John that every dad should have with his daughter's boyfriend that I don't know that my dad will ever have with one of mine.


Week four: As always, there is no place like Nebraska

My cousin in-law's dad is in Alexander Payne's new movie Nebraska and so a lot of my family went to the movie's premiere in Omaha. The movie is quite funny and is written about a town very close to where I grew up. They filmed in Norfolk and one of the members of the crew stayed out at my dad's lake so that was pretty cool. Also new, I bought my mom a beer for the first time after the movie. We went to the Blatt in downtown Omaha to watch the last quarter of the Husker game. The skers were playing so bad my mom, who was a preschool teacher mind you, punched me and dropped an F bomb. Good times with family.

Week four: Thanksgiving week

I ran in sub zero temperatures with my greatest running buddy of all time. I had icicles on my eyelashes. I also looked like this cat:



Tuesday, October 29, 2013

So I've been pretty much working my life away on a research paper for school about how the Harry Potter series formed the morals of the Millennial Generation. Fascinating, no? I did get out and do things in September and October. Here they are for September:

September week 1: I competed in the Hy-Vee triathlon Championships. This is championships for normal people like me. You have to qualify and you then race against the best of the normal people (not pros). My dad went with me again this year and we went to a new Husker bar in Des Moines for the first Husker game of the season. The night of race day we went to the Goo Goo Dolls and Lifehouse concert in my hometown. It was awesome. Lifehouse sings the song that was the theme for the movie of The Time Traveler's Wife, my most favorite book of all time, and I seriously was shaking. I know that sounds stupid but I just love that story to no end and the song gives me goosebumps and makes me want to cry every time. I think about that story every day. It's hard for me to put into words how much I love it. Goo Goo Dolls sing one of my most favorite songs of all time as well, "Iris." I've dreamed of hearing that song live since I was in grade school watching VH1's top 20 video countdowns in the summertime. Happiness.

September Week 2: Since I had a race the weekend after my birthday, I waited to celebrate my 25th until this week. We went out to the Candle(Scandal)light Lounge, a place my friends have talked so much about but I had yet to have the pleasure of experiencing. It was everything I dreamed it would be and more. You can imagine what it's like by the name Scandalight. I also tailgated all day for the first time. I usually go to a Husker game every year, but I've never just hung out in Lincoln and tailgated all day. Best time eva! And my friend Jenny got me a super cute tank (we matched) and we got complimented left and right. I have the best friends. Good looking.

September Week 3: I started going to a new yoga class. I love it. It's the first time I've had to pay for a membership to go somewhere to work out though. Namaste.

September Week 4: I got to be support for a race! I've never got to cheer someone else on or help them run a race because I've always been the runner. Go, team, go. 

September Week 5: Oh, baby. Crossed something off of my bucket list: rode the crap out of a mechanical bull. It's time for Boots and Wangs again. My friends and I needed an excuse to wear cowgirl boots more often so we decided last year we'd start going out for wings and wearing boots because why wouldn't you? We did it at a bar (that didn't have wings, mind you) this time in Counciltuckey that had saddles to sit on at the bar. Win.

 


My cousin Josh also got married this week. I hope I'm not hated for this someday, but we're sitting there during the wedding and, of course, (well not really of course because I haven't had a date to a wedding in 2 years, but anyway) my date is sitting next to my dad. My family is sitting in the first two rows on the groom's side and during the Lord's Prayer, someone rips one. I'm fuming. I'm seriously pissed because I'm sure it's my dad. A. How rude. B. How embarrassing in front of my date. After the wedding I turn to scold my dad and everyone in my family turns to him we are all just laughing and my cousin Nicole tells us it was her three year old daughter. That Nicole felt her lift her little butt cheek and let one go. My whole family could hear it. Epic. 

And here's a picture of Tannie and me because he looks so handsome: 

And I feel everyone should see this sweet video of my cousin's son Marin: 




Moves.

I promise October is coming. And I'll be writing again. Maybe I'll even share my enthralling research paper. 







This story came out of a writing prompt and a news article I read a while back. I've posted it before, but I've wrote a little more and changed somethings. I've mostly been working on Jaisa's story but I can't let this one go. I love Jaisa and I know where her story is going so I'm running with that now, but I'm super excited to get some ideas and roll with Branko soon.

Damn! A blister the size of a peach pit splits open on my palm. I drop the shovel and stare down at the ripped flesh. It's kind of oozy. I look up, out of the hole at the night sky. The moon glows orange against the black. Wait, what? Out of a hole? Branko, what the hell are you doing in a hole? I ask myself.
     Yep, the shovel, the dirt, the digging. Digging a hole. Why am I digging a hole? 
     Dirt covers my boots and dust streaks my jeans and flannel shirt, which is ripped across the front like a werewolf clawed my chest. Blood. My side is bleeding. How am I going to get out of this hole? The sides are just taller than my head. Where is all of the dirt I got out of this bad boy? What if it caves in on me? 
     My chest tightens. Breathing hard. Eyes bouncing to the ground, underground all around me, up, up and out, only able to see sky, where is the ground? 
     I'm in the ground. 
     I grab a root and try to hoist myself up. Pulling, scrambling out, grasping for grass, lugging body out of hole. Out, out of the ground! 
     I lie on my stomach, feet dangling over the mouth of the hole, left cheek resting on the grass. Breathing, sweating, blister oozing. When I look up, holes. All I see are holes. 
     I can't see far. The tangerine moon is the only light, but I know in the blackness are more holes. Holes like the one I just crawled from. Six feet wide, six feet deep. If I reach to the right, I can stick my arm in a hole. If I reach to the left, same thing. A cloud drifts over the moon, leaving me in complete darkness. 

I wake with the sun and remember what I’m doing, the confusion of the night before lifts with the return of day. At first I how often I forget where I am scared me. Now, sometimes I think it’s a blessing to forget.
I had understood that they were going to do it. Knock me out, take part of my liver, stitch me up and wake me when it was over. I knew it would be painful. But I was supposed to get $40,000 for it. Do you know how much money that is? How much food that can buy? Heat, water, food. If I just did it, then we’d be set. With Dad dead, I’m the one to do it. I am the man. Take care of your mother he had said. I can’t make enough at the meat factory and they just laid Mom off. They probably kept me since they can pay me less. Woo for child labor.
            I just thought the liver people would snip off the part they wanted and pay me and send me home. Now, here I am with less than half a liver, digging holes for crazy people. Murders, probably. I look over at my shovel from where I’m lying in the narrow strip between two holes. Would one of these holes be my grave? What’ll happen when I get to the edge of the clearing? He’d said dig six foot by six foot spaced three feet apart until the entire field was full. The field is barely the size of a soccer pitch. What happens when I’m done?
            I stand and immediately fall back on my ass, leaning into the nearest hole, barfing. I put my fingers on the scar. How long has it been? I sit up and count the holes. Thirty-three. Thirty-three holes times one hole a day plus the three weeks (give or take) I was at the chop shop, “the hospital” where they took out sixty percent of my liver and didn’t pay me a dime or send me home. That means fifty-four days. At least. Fifty-four days I’ve been gone and Mom has been without money. Sixty-three days after my seventeenth birthday. If it really was three weeks before they brought me to the holes.
I’d gone into the surgery without Mom knowing six days after my birthday. Six days after she cried because we couldn’t afford dinner and a cake and a gift and all we had was canned corn, bread and butter and a beautiful chocolate torte without the nuts—too expensive—for my birthday.
            I grab my shovel and thrust the tip into the ground, pulling myself up on the handle, supporting myself to stand. I went to Kosovo to sell my liver piece, but I’ve no idea where I am now. I could be in any field in any country. The air is crisp, fall is coming, and it smells like dirt, soil. Holes. My gnarly, black hair flops to the top of my ears, dirt lives under my fingernails and probably in every crevice of my body and bones jut out everywhere, stretching my skin. No one back home in Serbia would recognize me now without my usual buzz cut, scrubbed raw skin and muscles. Verica. Verica would still recognize me. All she ever has to do is look in my eyes and she knows everything that’s inside me.
            I start digging.
Someone is watching. There is always someone watching. I tried to run twice and was whipped like a racehorse in a close race: swift, hard and with a mean sense of urgency. Breakfast comes when the sun looms over the trees.
I had kissed Mom goodbye when I left that last morning. “I love you,” I told her. “See you in a few days.” I told them the owners of our factory in Krusevac were sending a group to start a new factory in Aleksinac, but I really jumped a train to Pristina, Kosovo. I told her I’d be gone for two weeks.
The shovel is heavy today. The dirt is heavy today. Sometimes I think this is getting easier. Today I feel each mound of dirt weighing down all the muscles in my body. Every movement is crushing and slow, like I’m trying to move in a dream.
I didn’t tell Verica I was leaving.  I knew if I told her anything, she’d know I was lying. She’s funny like that. I may have known her longer than I’ve known anyone other than my parents, but I can’t tell if she loves me or hates me. She probably knows what I had for dinner and how many times I brush teeth every day of the week.
“Branislav Zupan, I see you waiting for me under that tree. Don’t act like I can’t walk myself home. I’m a big girl and I know you aren’t just passing by,” she used to say when I first started at the factory and she still got to go to school.
I hate when people call me by my given name—Branislav. No thank you. It’s Branko.
A worm wiggles in the shovel full of dirt I just scooped up. Actually, I notice, I cut him in half. How does that work? That you can cut a worm in half and both halves go on living?
Verica and I grew up in the same apartment building, our moms took turns watching us based on their shifts at the factory. We went to school together until I had to drop out. Right before I left to sell the piece of my liver, Verica had had to drop out too to go to work because her brother, Vuk, went to jail.
“I can’t go work there, Branko.” She cried the night before her first day while we sat on the stoop of our apartment building. The red brick building sagged with the depression of all who lived there. The outside smelled like piss and burnt cheese, but when I was with Verica all I could smell was her—sweet, sweet honey. Honey like her hair in the sun, reaching all the way down her back. Honey like the smoothness of her legs when she wore shorts or skirts that waved around her knees. Honey like the sweetness of her voice when she called through my window to come over.
I didn’t know how to respond. I knew she didn’t want to work in the factory. I didn’t want to work there either, but what choice did we have? I took her hand in mine and tried to wipe the tears from under her dark brown eyes.
She pulled her hand away and stood up, looking down the street. Away from our home, away from me. “I just want to stay in school, you know? Maybe if I can stay there, I can learn something. Something that will take me away from here.” She leaned against the railing to the apartment stairs with her back to me.
“Where else can you go? Your parents need you,” I said. I need you, I thought.
“You’re too loyal, Branko. Sometimes I wish you’d just be selfish and do something for your self. Just once. Don’t be so damn responsible.” She turned and walked up the stoop into the apartment building and away from me.
I walked her to and from the factory every day if I wasn’t working. I wonder what she thought when I didn’t show up.
The sun is up over the trees and Lugnuts lumbers over with bread. I mean breakfast. It’s always bread. Bread and water in a canteen, both of which he chucks at me like I’m waiting for a pitch. I don’t Lugnuts’s real name. He just looks like he’s a few lugnuts short of, well, anything that might work properly.
“Hey! What’s going to happen when I dig up this whole lot?” I ask, waving my hands toward the remaining empty expanse of the field. The first few days I asked question after question, always answered by the same blank stare. After a week I gave up.
Lugnuts looks at me like I asked him to find the square root of pi, shrugs and weaves his way back through the minefield of holes to the tree line.
Some other guy is the one who told me to dig that first morning I woke up out here. He had on a ski mask, black jeans and a black shirt. His voice was deep but not distinctive. He wasn’t very tall or very fat. Nothing about him could help me identify him when, if, I escape. I haven’t seen him since that first day.
I woke to someone kicking my foot. The world was spinning and the sun was so bright! How long had it been since I’d seen the sun? How long had it been since my surgery? My whole body ached. Ski Mask threw the shovel down beside me and said dig. “Dig the holes six feet around and six feet deep. Measure them one foot above your shovel height. Space them three feet apart.”
I don’t think I even responded. I just laid there, gaping at him. I touched my side, my scar from the surgery. I didn’t think I could even stand up let alone dig a freaking hole. Then crack!
Lugnuts snapped a whip at me, catching my bicep, tearing at the skin under my shirt sleeve. I stared down at my arm, unable to believe the pain and pop! He whipped me again, this time on my thigh.
“Dig or this time it’s your face,” Ski Mask told me.
I used the shovel to steady myself while standing.
“Dig,” Ski Mask said.
I plunged the tip of the shovel into the grass, using my full body weight to drive the blade down.

Ski Mask nodded and he and Lugnuts walked back into the trees.